for the last 3 weeks I've been dealing with my own medical issues
this included having to fast twice for medical testing and then dealing with test results that were not a solution to the "why" of my symptoms and being told that it would all be better if I changed my diet and exercised
that is the kind of "non-answer" that generally keeps me away from doctor's offices and sends me into either being really angry or the "black dog" of depression
there has been some of both here
along with those physical things I've been dealing with the rejection of my art work in three consecutive shows/challenges
which has had me thinking about the word "hungry"
I think everyone knows what I mean by hungry when it comes to food -- "hey, it's dinner time, I'm hungry"
but what I've learned here is that for me the "hungry" that has nothing to do with food is even stronger
perhaps it's still that little kid piece that won't be silenced in seeking attention
or the competitive part of me that thinks my work is as good as any number of other folks and my work deserves to be included and seen
it has been a bumpy ride
that said, I have not worked on a whole lot during those 3 weeks
and there it sits
I'm working on designing something else -- the truck will be there, and I can come back to it when I figure it out - eventually
trying to get back on track working on things is a good thing